Well friends, I apologize for being MIA for quite awhile now. These past few months have been a blur, but as things have started to slow down somewhat, I have to come back and make a big announcement. I, Miss Parisian, am not getting married. At least not right now, and not at all to Monsieur P.
There were a lot of things that happened, a lot of feelings to be had, a lot of talks that should or shouldn’t have happened. But the end result is the same — no wedding. And that’s okay! Sometimes, some people are just not meant to marry each other. And some people are better off as friends than a romantic couple. You can’t fit a square peg into a round hole! Like some Bees before me (Mrs. Snapdragon and Ms. Fondue, for examples) I’m finding this to be a positive thing, the rainbow after the storm.
Since we last talked, things got pretty interesting. I moved out of the house that Monsieur P and I jointly owned, opting to move back into the city from the suburbs. I’ve been adjusting to living by myself again, for the first time since a brief stint in college sans roommates – and I am loving it! I’ve been focusing my energy on working and spending time with my friends, cooking and eating healthier foods (except for as many macarons as a girl can eat), and spending time with my kitty babies. I’m even looking into joining some new extracurricular activities.
It’s been a crazy ride, but I’m really enjoying life and feeling great about my decision. I love Monsieur P, and I was (and still am) excited to get married one day. I just realized that there were some things that I was not willing to accept, and love wouldn’t be enough to make me compromise. Having those doubts and going forward with the wedding anyway just didn’t seem like a good way to start off a marriage.
So I called it off. There was a lot of hurt, anger, shock, and the whole spectrum of emotions. But I’ll save all of that for another post.
Instead of finishing blogging about the wedding, I’m going to fill you in a little bit about the recent goings-on, and how to go about UN-planning a wedding and separating from a significant other. Why not? Sometimes these things happen, right? If I can share my story and help others cope with all of the chaos and stress around a broken engagement, I’ll consider it a success.
Stay tuned, Miss Parisian’s not quite finished yet!